Share your truth
Submitted by Neva
“Share your truth”
my truth
is that I want a big plate of pasta
to taste garlic lingering on my tongue
and feel the slick of olive oil around my lips
but instead I just think about it
while sitting on my couch and looking at my phone
watching skinny women eat delicious food
my truth
is that every day that at least 3 times
I resent my dogs
because the sound of them chewing on their toys
and licking themselves
and drinking water
just the sounds of them being living animals
makes me want to tear my hair out
my truth
is that I killed all my vegetable seedlings
and I’ve been thinking of giving up on my garden entirely
my truth
is that I judge my boyfriend
for not putting his laundry away
when my laundry is still in the basket
my truth
is that I compete with everyone around me
and whenever I see someone do something wonderful
I think
“I want to do that too, just as good as them, or better”
because I my ego is fragile
my truth
is that I’m tired of trying to make art out of every damn annoying, painful, boring, unremarkable thing
to try turn everything into beauty
when the reality is that sometimes things are just cruddy
my truth
is that I’m tired of hearing instagram coaches say “your truth is your medicine”
my truth
is not some glorious revelatory salve
that will heal the world
my truth
today
is a shit-lined rain cloud